don't mind me, im carefree....

i finished my first year of college.

one down, three and a half to go.

biggest thing i miss about EI:
how "i just couldn't finish" was an acceptable excuse

emily is home

three for three on the college front

$56,000 from uarts

1) not too shabby
2) no diggity
3) super

i cant believe that was one of the last school bus rides i will ever take.

She was the third beer. Not the first one, which the throat receives with almost tearful gratitue; nor the second, that confirms and extends the pleasure of the first. But the third, the one you drink because it's there, because it can't hurt, and becausse what difference does it make?

ouch

goodbye my only sister in the world.

there is tofu in my fridge.

listen to the salutation of the dawn.
look to this day for it it life, the very light of life.
for in its brief course lie all the varietaies and realities of our existance:
the bliss of growth.
the glory of action.
the splendor of beauty.
for yesterday is but a dream and tomorrow is only a vision, but today well lived makes every yesterday a dream of happiness and every tomorrow a vision of hope.
look well there for to this day, such is the salutation of the dawn.

shitty school day but i felt like i got a lot of work done (even if i didnt).
we won the bball game and it felt awesome (even if i was just cheering).

i went to the gallery on m26th street and saw my work and everyone elses. a few punks came in and i reconized one of them. logan. i called liv and i told her i saw him but i didnt think he reconized me and just then he walks over and kisses me on the cheek. i wished i wasnt in my sweat pants. when elle came she was talking to his friend girlfriend and we were both standing there kinda left out and we looked at each other and a a moment (i could be making this up). when i left he was like "what? are you leavin?!" and i was like "haha, yeah, ill see you soon" and he kissed me on the cheek and i walked away.

while i was walking to the subway i looked at the boots hanging around my neck. the skinned alive logo he had painted on with nail polish was still there.

damn logan is still so fucking sexy.

can you be shaking hands with the princess of norway in one minute, and the next be eating fried chicken and drinking soda out of a styrofoam cup.

ever feel like people are talking to you and you just arent undersatanding the shit that theyre saying and you dont know if its you or them whos not making sense, and you head starts spinning cause the words are twisting and you try to make them work but they dont and you know whats going on but only from one point of vew and the whole thing is jsut too rediculous because in the end nothing will be settled?

We've been saying we're going go somewhere
For a long long time
Nothing ever happens
Why's it never happen

I wonder where I'll be in a year
Probably be sittin right here
But if you know the answer
Don't tell me anyone
I don't wanna know

Cause I don't wanna know

Youre a teaser, you turn em on
Leave them burning and then youre gone
Looking out for another, anyone will do
Youre in the mood for a dance
And when you get the chance...

You are the dancing queen, young and sweet, only seventeen
Dancing queen, feel the beat from the tambourine
You can dance, you can jive, having the time of your life
See that girl, watch that scene, dig in the dancing queen


whatever happens this weekend, ill be dancin'.

I'd wear your black eyes
Bake you apple pies

starting in, playing in, and winning the bball game

going to leahs house

getting chinese food

watching dawsons creek season three when joey and pacey start hooking up

walking only two blocks to get home

sleeping

and then there was one.


if you close the door
the night could last forever
leave the sunshine out
and say hello to never

all the people are dancing
and theyre having such fun
i wish it could happen to me

but if you close the door
id never have to see the day again

if you close the door
the night could last forever
leave the wine glass out
and drink a toast to never

oh someday i know someone will look into my eyes
and say hellooo
youre my very special one

but if you close the door
id never have to see the day again

Needles and pins,
Needles and pins,
Sew me a sail
To catch me the wind.


Sew me a sail
Strong as a gale,
Carpenter, bring out your
Hammer and nails.


Hammers and nails,
Hammers and nails,
Build me a boat
To go chasing the whales.


Chasing the whales
Sailing the blue,
Find me a captain
And sign me a crew.


Captain and crew,
Captain and crew,
Take me, oh take me
To anywhere new.

-Shel Silverstein